Thursday, January 22, 2009
today feelin veri sian.. haiz tis past few days dear keep on sayin wanna brin me go ba sa ba lam, bt in e end oso nv go.. ytday i play mj, i win $50+.. so heng.. hope my lucky will get better in the cumin yr.. i dunno y recently i bcumin veri easily gettin emotional.. i cry veri easily.. when i tink of the past and present.. it make me feel damn hurt.. y is heaven treatin me tis way.. wat hav i realy done dat make him wanna punish in tis way.. y all i hav done, i still haven get my repay?. why i need to always giv in to others bt nt they giv in to me.. why every1 is lyin to me.. why is every1 treatin me lik a fool.. why is dat i always need to see other ppl temper to cheer em up.. why is it so unfair to me.. new yr is cumin i dun feel happy at all.. i jus feel dat i'm al alone in tis world.. just by myself.. other dan me.. i feel others r all strangers.. even i do know em.. it jus feel as if i'm diff frm other.. i feel lik mayb i'm transparent.. no 1 can see me.. bt only i can see em.. dat's all i wanna say.. moody day..
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
haiz.. chinese new yr is jus comin in 9days time.. haiz.. this few day i quarrelin wif dear over LV bag dat is meant to be my 2008 christmas present, our 3rd yr anniv present, my 22nd b'day present and valentine day present.. haiz.. dat bag cost at $1770.. actually i longing for a LV bag for a long time le.. and dear ask me wat i want for bday prsent dan i told him dat i 1 a LV bag.. dan he say ok, he will buy for me.. dan in between he lik nv buy n nv say abt tis tinks le.. and i was e 1 who is keep talkin abt it.. and he was so piss off and we keep quarrelin over tis.. haiz.. he can say till lik all is my fault.. pls lor is he who say he will buy for me.. dan i jus mention oso cannot.. why is he treatin me lik tis.. sometime i was wonderin am i dun worth jus a merly 1.7k.. and when u go drink or eat or buy tinks wif ur frens, sometime they dun even pay u e moni u oso nv say anytink.. althought those moni is merly a few hundreds dollar.. bt if tis always happen u can buy more dan 1 bag for me le.. for example.. the new yr for 2009 de.. around $600 u oso say is ok.. WTF.. i dun even worth more dan ur frens.. i am realy damn sad.. have u ever realy jus tink of my feelin for jus a sec.. and if tis is 4 present combain dat u only need to pay $442 for 1 present.. althought mayb it cost alot.. bt aft tis i wun ask for a more expensive present le.. bt u jus wun believe me... can't u jus trust me for a sec.. and u lik to push blame to me.. even it is nt my fault.. and u lik to scold mi.. u oso lik 2 find fault on me.. why u treatin me tis way.. hav u ever wonder hw my heart hurt.. watever i do is nt gonna be enough for u.. u wun ever feel gan dong de.. n watever i do u oso tink i dun deserve u to treat me gd back.. i am wondering.. is it bcoz u know no matter wat i wun leave u de.. so u jus treat me lik tis oso nth will happen de.. is it?. haiz.. don't he know my feelin for keep on lyin to me.. why is tinks always happenin tis way.. why is ppl keep on treatin me in a unfair way.. since bein a gd ppl is stupid y must i be a gd person.. FUCK MAN.. i realy had enough of all tis.. i goin to change myself into a FUCKIN BAD PERSON.. coz no 1 apperciate me for bein gd to em at all.. i dun wanna be a FOOL anymore..
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Wednesday, January 7, 2009
on my actual bday.. me and dear went to TM to eat tepanyaki.. aft dat we went to ah mah hse to celebrate my bday.. and dear bought KFC to ah mah hse to treat em.. aft dat we went to 511 to talk cock.. and lastly we go play mahjong wif ah bo n botak till morning.. aft playin mahjong we go to 511 to eat.. and aft eatin went back to dear hse to bath and prepare to go lion dance with dear.. today ah gong xing told dear do an investment and oso told him to pull ppl in to his lion dance group.. i was nt happy wif it.. coz i find e investment is veri high risk, i dun wish dat dear de hard earn moni will b cheated by others.. and i oso dun wish dat dear will create troubles for him ownself by pulling ppl to lion dance.. haiz.. bt he seems lik dun understand my tinkin at al.. i was wondering is there any way to let him feel my feelin n know wat m i tinkin.. sian.. anyway aft e lion dance we were to tired so we went home to slp.. slp till quite late ard 12am dan went to hong kong cafe with ah bo to have our dinner.. and i went back to ah mah hse to get the bedsheet dat i bought for dear de new bed de.. and ah bo was so gd, all the way sent me back to jurong from siglap.. i think coz of dear dan he send me home de la.. haha.. aft dat straight away went back to dear hse.. dat's all..
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this post is for my bday de.. when on the eve of my bday 05.01.2009 ( it's was oso my 3rd yrs annvi wif dear ) me and dear quarrel again.. and he said alots of tinks dat hurt me de.. he say we should't be together and bla bla bla.. and wat lead us into this quarrel is dat when i wake up, it was around 7pm le.. and i feel damn hungry.. suddenly i feel lik eatin tepanyaki dat is located at TM de.. dan i jio all the gers to go eat bt none of em is free.. so i jio ah boy to pei me go eat.. and i didn't ask dear coz when i call him and ask where is he dan he told me dat he is watchin IP MAN wif his dad n mom.. and he sound piss off.. i dunno y.. so i didn't wanna talk long on the phone.. and when aft e show he call me and ask do i wanna go 511 eat.. bt i was bathin halfway, so i told him i will call him back once i hav done my showerin.. and when i finish bathin his dad n mom has come hm le.. and they ask me if i wanna eat anot.. coz his dad is cookin.. dan i say no coz im goin out soon le.. and they tell me dear is at dwnstair, n he is cumin up soon.. so i nv call dear and i faster go change clothes and make up.. as i dun wanna waste anymore time le.. coz it is ard 8+ 9pm le.. scare dat the shop close le.. i thought of finishin preparin myself aft dat dan ask dear wanna go anot de.. bt i dunno coz of wat he is damn piss off.. and he start givin me attitude.. and sayin all sorts of hurtsful tinks too me.. i feel so sad.. coz of all days why can't he jus giv in to me for 1 day.. y mus he treat me lik tis on my bday eve.. anyway aft awhile we r back to ok le.. and he bring me to conrad hotel there de oscar resturant to have our dinner.. aft dat we went to kster to celebrate my bday.. and all the gers giv mi a total worth of $280 gift voucher for my bday present.. dat's all for the events..
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