Tuesday, December 9, 2008
dear diary.. on sunday while i was slpin halfway, i had damn bad dream.. haiz.. i dream of dear outside gt other ger.. and the ger look like me bt she is more slim dan me.. and i saw my ex bf de fren on my dream and he told me dat he saw my bf wif other ger outside.. feelin damn sad and thinkin alot.. althought it's jus a dream bt it seems so real.. wow veri scary lor.. anyway dear is back frm china on sunday 7.12.08.. and nw is 9.12.08 he didn't bother cum n find me.. wth.. y promise me when u know u can't do it.. u say dat u r nt free u need 2 do ur stuff, bt y can go play mahjong, watch soccer n bring ur frengo see doc.. u can do all tis tinks, bt jus dun hav spare time for me.. who m i 2 u.. wat place did i hold in ur heart.. i really doubt myself n u.. mayb i dun hav enough confident in myself.. i seems so lost.. FUCK MAN.. n actualy i today wanna go ah mah hse wif ah mei de.. bt she jus bloody lie 2 me.. and in e end she go into fish farm wif her sis n left me alone lik a bloody idiot.. and ah ying dun let me go inside her hse.. i feel lik y every1 wanna lie 2 me.. m i lik a stupid fool, who's veri easily believe u all tis FUCKER.. damn.. i veri disappointed in tis world n ppl who is around me.. only AH MAH is still the BEST.. who nv lie 2 me n nv do all those SHIT tinks to me de.. dat's all for today.. i'm tired le..
-our
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ferlinHUANG!