Monday, December 22, 2008
dear diary, today me n dear quarrel again.. damn.. y is tis tinks keep repeatin.. i only hope to have a peacful relationship wif him, is dat veri hard.. haiz.. i dun understand y must he lik others.. y he wanna push me to dead end.. y he wanna make me so sad everyday.. y must he condem me.. i realy dun understand.. i hate dat feelin dat ppl accusse me.. and i oso hate ppl sayin me dat im wat kind of person n wat will i be in future.. FUCK.. i know wat im tinkin.. i know wat i will b.. so pls stop all tis SHIT, dat as if u all know me well.. DAMN.. no 1 know me at all.. did any1 try to understand my feelin.. can any1 put themselves into my shoes.. i only need a person to understand me, love me truly n care for me, is it realy DAMN HARD.. m i askin too much.. y all those tinks dat i hav done i still deserve tis kind of treatment n toture.. my head is burstin open.. my heart is almost being torn apart.. when i realy need some1 who is realy there for me.. who is there to hear my naggin, understand my feelin n care for me.. no 1.. bt when they nid me i wil b there.. is any1 treatin me fairly.. y dun god jus take me away frm here.. i realy suffer n hav enough.. coz in every1 eyes im jus A PILE OF SHIT.. they say my character sux, they tink dat im nt a gd person n im worst dan any1 out there.. so pls stop all tis.. i realy can't take it anymore.. jus let me die.. mayb i will feel much better n mayb they will too.. n mayb when i die they will tink of me for a second n mayb miss me.. coz ppl only know hw 2 treasure when they lost it..
-our
love story ;
ferlinHUANG!