Monday, December 29, 2008
dear diary, this is the post for sun 28.12.08 de.. haiz ytday me and dear stay at home play mahjong wif ah tat n ah lu n ah boy.. coz too many ppl so we need to take turn to play.. and dear mon gt stuff to do.. and the tink is dat he nid to go malaysia to pray.. dan on sun which is the day dat he need to go pray de.. i heard dat dear's mum callin him to ans the phone call which is called by ah kai ( who is goin malaysia wif him too de ) dan i was too lazy to climb out frm bed, coz i was too tired.. so i tell dear's mum to tell ah kai dat i wil cal dear to call him back by using his hp.. and dan i actually fall aslp n forget abt tis.. and dear miss his trip goin to malaysia.. aft i wake up he actualy scolded me.. he say i propesly dun wanna call him n let him stay at my side so he can continue to slp and wun go malaysia.. i was FUCKING ANGRY.. coz i hate bein accusse by any1.. i didn' propersly do dat.. i tink i was too tired dan i wil forget.. bt he was DAMN PISS OFF dat y i nv call him instantly.. i was tinkin dat if dat is so important to him, y can't he wake up himself.. and the most sad tink he do is he go CRAZY again.. sayin all those DAMN HURTFUL tinks to me.. those tinks r lik THOUSANDS OF KNIFES cuttin my heart to mash.. n making me more worst is dat he say he is goin china on my actual b'day.. i was DAMN DEPRESS.. i was wondering y is god so evil seein dat i hurt till i wanna die le.. dan he can stil let me suffer lik tis.. and y dun he jus brin me away to another world.. and aft dear scolded me and went out aft a few hrs later he came back hm.. he suddenly treat me in a normal way back.. i dunno who talk sense to him, to make him bcum his normal self.. and he came back he straight away check did i hurt myself.. and i actually used a lighter to cut my hand.. i tink i was abit OUT OF MY MIND coz of HIM.. i can bcum veri EMOTIONAL bcuz of HIM.. i dunno y i bcum lik dat.. haiz.. anywan aft dat we went to pei ah boy go see doc coz he hurt his both legs while playin soccer.. and while we were waitin we go have dinner wif ah lu.. and later tiger join us.. aft dat we go dear hse play mahjong wif tiger n ah lu.. and later ah bo n botok cum up to dear hse to see us play.. and finally we have an early night dat night coz we only play 1 round.. dat's all for sat n sun events.. haha..
-our
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